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i have re-vamped my list system. :3

i also have to re-start my journal. which is fine. i have avoided writing in it for 2 weeks now. :/ and i was doing so good!

working at freerice again! yay!

i hope to hammer out the lists here soon. :3 not a whole lot to say other than this list is funny to me. it was made when i needed direction, and now i have some. i'm not completely on track but i feel like i'm getting there. which is all the difference in the world.

lets hope i can finish this list sooner than later. :3 i reserve the right to change it tweak it and modify it, but honestly i think a lot of the stuff on it is still pretty relevant. tra la la

Fasting

i totally hammered out the water fast. i had done some research before hand but did this task spur of the moment.

it wasn't easy but it wasn't a super challenge. i felt this would be MUCH harder than it actually was. so there is that.

i didn't so anything to exerting though, which i think really helped. i took it as a "slow down" day.

i am up in the air if i will fast again. ... hmmm.

i out of the blue decided today was water fast day.

its 4pm in not very hungry but i cannot stop thinking of food. i am hoping to get some stuff done at home and go to sleep early. blah. i am looking forward to a grand feast on Saturday! i don't see my cracking at this point. i was more worried i wouldn't make it past 1pm.

its funny i have had to water fast before for surgeries etc, but it was always agonizing. this time i'm slightly disappointed. i am not really fighting my will power. of course i say this now, as the hardest part is about to happen.

hardest part = me at home with tons of food and a roommate who will make supper D: oh well!

what i have noticed? i'm irritable, and frustrated a lot easier but i'm not flying off the handle. the one thing i was worried about hasn't happened (yet) also. and that is having my blood sugar tank and i have to consume something. i do not have shakes or anything.

huh

It is funny how much a "renewed scene of purpose" changers out outlook/productivity.

a few days ago i had an art breakthrough. it was amazing.

now i am working on fixing me again. i am by no means broken,i just meed refinement. HOOOO. in the mean time i have some goals here that will really get some attention soon!

HAHA!

last 2 days i have donated 4500 grains of rice! my goal is 10,000 a week for the rest of February.

doop doop

My January list in review! aka: things i actually DID.

continue with workout
Add $500.00 to savings.
Smudge apartment
Keep doing/promoting art drills
keep up with positive thinking
keep on growing hair
add 4 movies to Disney movie collection.
work on filling journal

i failed a LOT of my goals however i found i was also in a flux. which is fine. its not like i only have 4 weeks to finish the rest of my list. but i was also working on a freelance project. i think i have grown a LOT from doing this. i have become more accepting of my self :D more accepting of my faults, and accepting of a preconceived 'failure' its really cool.

i have some goals for this month.

Juice fast
get my 101 Lists done
Keeping up with things in progress (rice, blood, happy thoughts, smudging) and start 2 new goals not listed.

all in all i finally feel great.

not dead. and i didn't stop this. just busy. D: